In pursuit of life

There are stuffs we do,
Only to mock us;
There are Games we play,
Only to hurt us.

We love with passion & intensity,
& we hate the same way.
We laugh till the eyes are in tears,
& cry with Sadness the same way.
We travel far in pursuit of knowledge,
& yet we are ignorant in a way.

These are the things we do,
to be happy in our lives.
These are the way we fight,
to be good to ourselves.

Where Insomnia is a habit......

This is normalcy...yes, I say that to myself when I am always awake at wee hours of night.. Sometimes I start visualising my future or at times I see flashbacks of my life being proud of some decisions I made while rerouting some. Rarely I come upon a blog to read and which is a first of a kind I am writing one  about it.

Expecting I would write a poetry out of it...I delibrately stare at those skies & stars in the sky. What could I possibly bake into a poem.. Dark Black Skies, Bouncy clouds of cotton or those milky stirred moons. 

Never the less putting up the keys to work & fingers in action.... Starting from this post of mine some time back.

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"I visualize a certain darkness in the room... A certain numbness & then i see a chip of light from a crack which becomes clear & eventually more clear after some time,

Even though i close my eyes, the clarity neither changes, increases nor decreases. It is to stay there like forever & ever.

I move in & out with heavy breathing when the entire galaxy of stars come upon me & its not sleep but a wait,

An unfair observation and those twilight of characters.

and then that fades off eventually, and all I am left with is the space which it occupied

And now I see that chip of light, now making more sense making it vulnerable more physical

Announcing the safety & the comfort of what it is to beckon me with.....

Book Review -- Metroland

Metroland. Julian Barnes by Julian Barnes
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

It is Just amazing that how the randomness of a certain event leads us to experience another event in relation to it. I somehow recall first the month of Jan this year where I coincidentally happen to go to a book store due to a power failure. So had the power not failed or had a british reader not recommended the book "The Sense of an ending" or had I did not see the entire work by Julian Barnes the probability of me reading this book would have been minimal.

Julian Barnes in this book tells us the Story of two Boys/Lads/Teenagers/Men through different ages of Life. It's not a story so most of the readers will never say they liked the story but for me its the period of life that worked with me. I absolutely loved reading their Adolescent age but was also equally hooked with Chris Life in Paris. Chris first Sexual experience, His first Love, his first break up leading to his marriage, his conflict with Tony was saddening part of the book & that's where the Writer slowly loses the grip but all's well that end well. The Object Relations at the end of every stage of life was equally enjoyed & gave the book a depth, an inner meaning, an insight of tony on how he looks back at the time that went by.

The book usually worked for me because of the equal combination of Wit & Philosophy. Julian Barnes is one of those authors who knew about the Human Nature early on. Easily this has to be among the best debut novel of a writer. The books works wonders in provoking class, interest and above all provokes thought in every minds and a thought to Ponder!

When the Rains Come down

Hello everyone. people have been wondering and asking me why most of my posts are dark oriented. Well life's never a happy ending times of our lives we seem to give ourselves a reality check. This is the world we live in. Dark, Lively, Happiness, Sad all forms a cycle of life. 

Rains on the other hand always catches my imagination. the clouds are dark above but they bring immense Joy into people's life. Just tried to wrote what came in mind when I see the rains coming down. 

                                                 Captured on a Fine Rainy Afternoon

On a dull Monday Afternoon
the trees Starts moving violently
the breeze is almost fierce
I see the rains coming down.

I see umbrellas everywhere
people running towards shelter
but how I wish I could dance
When the rains come down.

The sky is now almost dark
the roads are almost flooded
the surroundings is getting cooler
When the rains come down.

The Seconds turn to Minutes
and the minutes to hours
how I wish the time freezes
When the rains come down.

People get matured and turn old
people live and then die untold
If somehow I could be child again

When the rains come down.

When the Darkness crept In

I see darkness everywhere around me

Not a single ray of light

Not a Single person in sight

I feel numbness all around me

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The room's acting strange

There isn't any bed, window or a secret door

No way in, No way out

The room is silent, scary & dark..

I walk around and i reach nowhere

I run around I reach nowhere

is there none to exist

in this dark space of nothingness

Darkness holds me tight 

Like a lover holds his love

Darkness wraps me around

Like a blanket to keep me warm

Oh this Place is Silent

Just like a graveyard

Oh this place is silent

Even when I shout

Have I done something wrong

Did i make someone mad

Did I hurt Someone

Why did I deserve to be here

Will I ever see my friends again

Will I be able to say how much I love her

Will I be able to hug my pillow again

Will I ever watch those sunrise again

And then I hear her voice

There I felt her Foot Steps

But she want to avoid me
she doesn't even want to talk to me

I want to shout to call her back

To promise not to leave her forever

I don't want to be alone

I don't want to live without her

And then I hear my friends

They want to tell me something

They are slowly coming in nearby

Giving a signal to make me happy

I hear Shouting "Wake Up, Wake up"

But I ain't sleeping 

The world around me is collapsing

And I thought is the end near?

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I see green leaves everywhere

The morning coffee tastes sweet

I see love, care and affection to realize

Reality is always sweeter than the dreams

And it Rained...

Sometimes all rain can bring to someone's mind is A vision of relationship you had, U might have or you currently have!! Sitting by the window seeing the rains falling down and I thought Something weird, something more of a question which is not yet answered and as the rains got harder the quest to find an answer to the question becomes more easier!! yes its true sometime simple things are enough to find answers to complex Questions....

And of late, this poetic bug in me has bite me hard!! So a poem dedicated to rain or a Rain which I dedicate to this poem...Any way which helps me sleep in Peace!

Like A rain
You are always waited
Your absence can kill me
Your Presence ignites me
Your effect has the power to destroy

Before It Rains
I eagerly await you
Just like those crops and the famine lands
And I knew you would wash away
Of all my tiredness & loneliness

When it Rains
Reminds me of those Hideouts
we look to stay away
And yet I Pray
That this rain never stops

After It rains
I know It ain't over
I will see you soon
You leave your mark
Like the smells of the ground

Colors---The Way of Life

Colors..... What beautiful way could be to describe one's life in Colors. A mixture of fun, excitement, denial, anger, Happiness, Sorrow! Like every painting has a meaning of its own why Cant we define a life through a splash of color. So what new am i doing here today. I just want to find out if i could just describe the way we live, the way we think, the way we exist through colors. So lets paint the canvas of this page with some rich color's and see the way we live with it.

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RED:

For all things that hurt me
Every lame excuse that annoy me
For all times I screamed at you
For each roses I showered on you
For each Occasion that makes me Mad
For every Parting that makes me Sad
For every sound that followed after silence
For every time I bear her nuisance
For every Article that makes me think
for those Wonderful lips where i Sink

BLUE:

For those countless Monday Mornings blues
For those countless Clear Mornings blues
Like the gloaming eyes of a new born child say
You were like the feeling of spring in May
For those Magical Moments we had Together
For those Lovely evenings we spent together
Times when I go to beach on a lonely day
Thinking of Happy times we spent Every day
Every time I saw you going away from me
Every time I thought You were too good for me


BLACK:

Every time I saw theater's gone dark
Every time I see a person walking by
Every time I think of Papers getting Burnt
Every time I thought my heart's getting burnt
For the sunsets we watched together
For the days we missed being together
Every Night which promised Light Quickly
Every Farewell which Promised a meeting Quickly
Like the Tower in the Sky far from sight
U held my Hand forever and ever so Tight

PINK:

For the Color of your cheeks
For the Days of the weeks
For the Times we kissed
For the days we missed
For the days which were good
For every ground we stood
For the Splash of pink
For seeing her wink
For the love we had
For the Passion we had



There are at times when we feel ourselves closer to the creator (Not that I believe in him or I am an atheist). Emotions always accounts for a bigger perspective to make things easy for us. For every thing good there is an exact opposite entity created. For days there are nights, for Light there's dark, for happiness there is sorrow, for a matter there's an antimatter. So lets relish the wonderful moments and accept the negativity that comes our way in a positive way! Cheers to life, Cheers for the wonderful color's we have in our life

P.S: The poetry above is not a personification of my emotions ya feelings. Any resemblance of the above poem to me is purely fictional!